hearts of iron

I am so tired.

I am so tired i can barely manage a complete thought.

My days have been filled with kids and family and swimming in the lake. Good things, good times, happy children. This summer is going so much better for them than last. It feels good. I am filled with joy at watching their lazy summer days, sometimes boring, but never dramatic.

I have been working. I have been working too much. Summer is the busy season. Summer is seven shifts a week. Late nights and early mornings with children.

Shane and i have been staying up late. Talking, reconnecting. Long and difficult conversations on a weary body and mind. I am feeling the toll today of a body and mind pushed too far. The end in sight is october. Push through.

These are all positive things, but they are leaving me hollow inside this morning.