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May 13, 2008

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These have been difficult times.

I am struggling with how much to share here and how to do that in a way that respects the process i am going through. Shane and i have been talking a lot about the mistakes we have both made, the things we would like to change and how a marriage would look if we made it what we wanted.

We are not rushing into anything. We are still separate. Living in our own homes. Splitting custody. Even continuing with some of the dividing of assets. We are not being foolish. We are being honest. Honest with the children. Trying our best to protect them from expectations. I think it is healthy for them to see that we are working on things. Not rushing.

Rushing is something that we have done too many times in our lives. Rushing into marriage and family. Rushing out of marriage.

This time we have nothing left to lose. And everything. The last thing we need is to go through all this again. Our hearts are already weak.


Posted by Jess at 01:23 PM Permalink

Comments (7)

Best wishes in this fragile process. I think of you often and hope for resolution, whatever that may mean.

DQ

I just read your archives(; found you via amalah). Fascinated by your journey. I can't tell you I understand what you're going through, because I've never been through your life. (I have 3 children and a happy marriage.) But, I respect the strength it takes to forge ahead in the face of such challenge - chemical or otherwise. You're being honest, and that is the best thing a person can be. Keep working at success. And, maybe a fresh start at your marriage will be your prize. You never know. Don't give up. You can do this! Your kids will thank you for never giving up the fight for them.

I'm so awed and impressed as you and Shane work on this journey together. Best wishes that everything works out as you want it to for you and your family.

Jess-I can't remember if I've ever commented before or not but I've been reading your blog for a while...that's awesome that you and Shane are trying to work things out. So many couples don't. Whether it works or not, you are TRYING and that is the hardest part. (((HUGS)))

LB

Sounds like a good, sweet and thoughtful plan.

When I read your post a few days ago, I didn't automatically think you were going to reconcile as a couple. I wondered if maybe you guys had decided to use that framework as you move along. 'Cause even if you split, you'll always be a family, together bound by your children and what you shared.

Your last point about weak hearts strikes me. My dad has had a couple of heart attacks, the cardiac rehab is slow and steady, maybe there's a parallel there.

best from the midwest
Lisa

the greatest tool you could have at times like these is forgiveness. it's free and it works. let go of your grievances and start over every day. wishing you every happiness.

wishing you the very best and hoping things work out the way they should :)

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