running

This theme of running has been coursing it's way through my head the last few days.

Running from problems.
Running from hurt.
Running from reality.
Running from potential.

I think at moments, at times, we all run. It's human nature to want to avoid confrontation. The potential for hurt emotions, or worse, humiliation.

I have purposely slowed down this week. I have done my running. It has left me exhausted. But, i have landed now. A new home, a new life. Same things grounding me as they always have. Children, family, friends.

If i keep running i stand to lose these things. Perhaps not physically, but emotionally. Life, for all it's ups and downs, is always a learning experience and sometimes good things rise out of the ashes of the bad. I have found myself again. Through hours of introspection and searching. I am finally seeing the woman i am, the woman who got lost in the rush of life.

All the positive and negative images of my life coming together like an old album that i can flip through; laugh at the mistakes with a knowing nod and celebrate all the joy.