"People don't just break up."
That's what he said. He didn't understand how all this happened. How we got to this place of separate houses, children shuffled back and forth.
"how did this happen to us?"
And we sit and we talk. Sometimes the conversation is light and friendly. Just like it always was. Two friends. Two lives forever inter-mingled. Histories made together.
Often we end in tears. Tears of frustration and anger and sadness all mixed together. It is almost too painful for both of us.
The desire to figure out the problems. To try and fix them always opens the conversation back up. And we always walk away feeling worse. Problems highlighted. Regret, longing, desire becoming the new themes in this relationship. Words that we want to roll up in a ball and toss in the fire. Words that we can't manage to get past.
Posted by Jess at 09:16 AM Permalink
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This sounds familiar to me. While much less complicated (being 24 and having no kids, no house etc) this is exactly the kind of conversations my ex and I had for months after we broke up. Finally I just told him we couldnt go "there" anymore. I wanted to try and have an open, friendly relationship with him but I could go thru the guilt over and over of talking about our relationship and the breakup.
Posted by Beth | April 30, 2008 10:12 AM