The kids have been home sick for the past couple days. I always enjoy these days. Part of it is laziness. I like sleeping in and relaxing around the house. I like having them around. The chaos of the five of us sharing this small space. The glee on parker's face when he realizes that his best friends are staying home to play all day. Forts are built and destroyed, picnics are made and devoured outside, intricate cities are built in the creek running down the side of the house.
We began planting our vegetable garden and putting perennials and pansies in the flower beds. The promise of spring becoming a reality.
This sense of calm continuing to wash over me. Ground me. Working the soil through my hands, making this house a home.
My future is as uncertain as ever. Yet, somehow, these lazy days surrounded by all the things i love, make that uncertainty fine. Familiar even. Life was never certain. I have always held this naive ideal that things usually work themselves out. As long as i have faith. As long as i have love in my life. Things will be okay. Great sometimes.
Posted by Jess at 09:57 AM Permalink
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What beauties they are! Things DO work themselves out. Being comfortable with uncertainty is about the best thing you can be. Because no matter what the appearance of certainty may be telling you--the only truth is that everything in this life will change. For better or worse, it's not going to remain the same. So yeah, things will be great sometimes, shitty sometimes, but way more enjoyable if you can appreciate what's right in front of you--as you are now doing.
Posted by marian | April 17, 2008 01:27 PM