jessnashostofuva

I quit my job today. One of them. I had a moment. I am too old to be treated like a child.

I had a dream last night. I was late for work. I was running to work in my pajamas and my snow boots. My teeth weren't brushed. Just as i was almost there. Right at the side of the parking lot. A limo rushed in, screeched to a halt. Out jumped my dad and Peter Jennings ( a national news correspondant). Peter ran right up to me, a couple of centimeters from my face, and said "Jess! What are you going to do with your life? What are you going to be when you grow up?!!"

I tried to turn my face away so he wouldn't notice my bad breath. I went to answer. And i woke up. Sweaty.

Stewing all day today. A little moment at work. It all became clear. And i quit.

Because this is what i want to do. What i have always wanted to do. To begin this beginning i introduce "jessnashostofuva"

Jess' national short story & fuck you valentines month!! Huzza!!

A short story a day. A fictional short story a day for thirty days. Starting tomorrow.

Posted by Jess at 10:22 PM Permalink

Comments (9)

jessica

Huzza indeed!

Excited about jessnashostofuva. Odd, odd dream.....too bad about the moment. But Huzza!

Posted by jessica | February 11, 2008 12:18 AM

denise

Great cant wait!

Posted by denise | February 11, 2008 08:51 AM

Debbie

February 4 - Officially off meds
February 9 - Post photograph of ankles tied up with belt (wtf?) wearing hose and pretty shoes
February 10 - Quit job
February 11 - Re-start meds--please.

Posted by Debbie | February 11, 2008 08:53 AM

jess

debbie,

i can see how it looks that way. really, that photo should not frighten you.

quitting my job was absolutley the right thing to do for my mental health.

jess

Posted by jess | February 11, 2008 09:22 AM

Debbie

I hope so, Jess, I really do. I lurk and worry.

Posted by Debbie | February 11, 2008 09:26 AM

jessica

I knew I could count on someone to voice concerns about mania, which is why I kept to just my Huzza. But sometimes things are just right to do. And everyone at some point in their life does something spontaneous. Can't wait to hear the story.....but be safe my friend. Be so very safe.

Posted by jessica | February 11, 2008 02:47 PM

Fifi

Eh..think maybe you could be coming off meds too fast??
It can speed you up-a rule of thumb is generally gradually cutting down..a month for every year on meds. so, if you're 3 years..it would be a 3 month taper. not just STOP.. That will cause brain zaps, sweats, and worse(including mania prior to having a depressive relapse)-especially with effexor.
God, you don't want to find yourself back at the start line jess..not judging-merely voice of experience here..wouldn't wish it on anyone.Take it slow.xx

Posted by Fifi | February 17, 2008 01:36 PM

jess

I did cut back gradually.

I was on Cipralex. I took effexor last year. Really, i am fine. But thanks.

Posted by jess | February 17, 2008 09:02 PM

Fifi

I wish I had some of the people who care/worry/think about you in my life..you are so so lucky!
xxx

Posted by Fifi | February 18, 2008 01:34 PM