i'd never loved a redneck hunter before

Life is strange. It really is. I have been censoring myself here like i never have. I have so many variables at play in my head. In my fingers.

People to be scared of. People to protect. People i care about deeply and don't want to hurt. People i want to hurt.

But, you know what? Life goes on. And i need to go on. I need to move on. I need to feel safe moving on.

I have dated on and off for the past few months. It is probably too soon. But, life is lonely. And i won't be young forever.

And whatever.

I'm not doing anything wrong.

I've never really worried about the whole dating thing. I'm not the most beautiful person in the world. I have four children. I'm recently separated. I am a great pick!

But. Without any judgement. There are plenty of people who are lonely.

Actually, that's a lie. I am so turned off by the prospect of dating as i really dislike most people. I more believe in accidental meetings of people who you were meant to meet. People who understand you. Accept you.

I have someone like that in my life. We have dated on and off for several months. I just don't want to hide it anymore. I don't want to feel judged. The third song is for me.

Posted by Jess at 10:20 PM Permalink

Comments (12)

Frogdancer

No judgement. My best friend ended up marrying the 2nd guy she met after she left her husband. However... most of us don't.

He's probably a fling. Enjoy, but be aware that those of us with 4 kids are not easy to build a life with....

Have fun, but please don't get hurt.

Posted by Frogdancer | January 18, 2008 01:48 AM

mizmouthy

Yay Jess!
I do love that song :)

Posted by mizmouthy | January 18, 2008 04:17 AM

Deanna

Rock on girl! Never be ashamed.

Posted by Deanna | January 18, 2008 06:15 AM

jennie

Now THAT is exciting.

Posted by jennie | January 18, 2008 06:18 AM

jessica

*grins* Not any reason at all to hide, because you my dear friend deserve to not be lonely. And I recognize those pictures... and he wrote you a song. How much better could it get? Good on ya.

Posted by jessica | January 18, 2008 08:12 AM

rachel

take care of yourself, and enjoy any happiness you can find!

I can't imagine dating again. eeeeep!

I hope you have many more good days and much more fun

Posted by rachel | January 18, 2008 09:33 AM

reddirtroad

Thanks for uncensoring yourself. You deserve to be happy.

Posted by reddirtroad | January 18, 2008 10:45 AM

reddirtroad

Thanks for uncensoring yourself. You deserve to be happy.

Posted by reddirtroad | January 18, 2008 10:46 AM

denise

Yes thanx and you do desrve to be happy.

Posted by denise | January 18, 2008 01:37 PM

Candi

Good for you :)Dating can be fun, enjoy yourself!

Posted by Candi | January 18, 2008 06:06 PM

jenijen

you are SO beautiful. i totally know.
xoxo

Posted by jenijen | January 19, 2008 12:02 AM

OMSH

I soooo love my redneck. An intelligent redneck at that. He kills things, sweats like a man, is absolutely beautiful on his Harley, equally as so in camo fresh from the woods.

You are so beautiful. I commented on that to more than one person after Blogher.

Bless you!

Posted by OMSH | January 25, 2008 11:34 AM