The week has been up and down. Separation agreement delivered to me. Most of me just wants to sign it and be done, but the logical part of me knows this is important. I need to stand up for myself. Not let my guilt and anxiety take control.
The kids are doing well. Parker has been by my side. Constantly offering up kisses and hugs. He's changed his threats from "i'm going to hit you..." to "i'm going to give you (holds up all his little fingers) this many kisses and hugs."
They are adjusting to the different houses and out of school care. Eagerly discussing halloween costumes and which house to trick or treat at. I will be moving into my new house on the 30th.
My family has come through for me in amazing moments of support and the promise of a van full of furniture on the 30th.
I feel very lucky.
I will never know if this decision is the right one. It's just a different path. One i never thought i'd take.
The kids will be with shane and his family for thanksgiving this weekend. I will be working. Working will make it easier to get through this first holiday as separate families.
I will be thankful for families and children. Beautiful children who make everything a little better.
Posted by Jess at 09:22 PM Permalink
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Thinking of you this weekend:)
Posted by nailgirl | October 5, 2007 07:46 PM