the evening breeze

I am feeling much better. More grounded. Thoughts are still swirling in my head, but i realized that they are there because i have so many things going on. Pulled in so many directions.

The other night in the midst of panicing that i was getting very manic i forgot to stop and listen to my body. Which, contrary to my belief, was not all that manic, but in the middle of a several day long anxiety attack.

School has begun with a joyous gusto. The kids are happy and i am happy to walk in the school and enjoy the fruits of my labour. All my hard work as president is showing. Things are running as they should - all the little kinks ironed out.

The sun came out again this afternoon so we rushed to the lake as we are always anticipating the last swimming day as autumn approaches. We were the only ones on the beach. Our favourite beach - not private, but secret, for locals only. I sat and listened to my ipod as the kids laughed and ran like carefree kids. It was a magical afternoon.

Another day to be thankful for. I will be thankful for this day. Always. A chance to stop for a few hours and calmly enjoy my children. The waterfalls built in the sand, toby finally confident in his swimming, eliza writing words in the sand - so proud of her emergent reader status, parker reading a book quietly on his blanket and tristan laughing and giggling with her best friend - still a child.

Posted by Jess at 07:51 PM Permalink

Comments (11)

nyjlm

so glad that things are feeling better today.

Posted by nyjlm | September 5, 2007 08:31 PM

nailgirl

Sounds like a perfect day to me.

Posted by nailgirl | September 6, 2007 07:12 AM

sadira

Hang in there! I've been in my head a lot recently myself, which makes for some interesting observations about the world...Thank goodness for the lake, and the calmness eh?

Posted by sadira | September 6, 2007 08:06 AM

Debby

Good for you Jess:) It sounds like you stopped and took it all in. Today hit you just right my friend.

Posted by Debby | September 6, 2007 05:04 PM

Neesja

It was a lovely VI day wasn't it? So happy you were able to enjoy it.

Posted by Neesja | September 6, 2007 06:19 PM

"Another day to be thankful for. I will be thankful for this day. Always. A chance to stop for a few hours and calmly enjoy my children." - This is something I need to be reminded to do often. Thanks.

Posted by TB | September 7, 2007 08:29 AM

OMSH

*sigh*
This entry even calmed my spirits.

Thank you.

Posted by OMSH | September 8, 2007 01:49 PM

kim at allconsuming

Delicious. The day I mean, not the days long anxiety attack. And snaps to you for recognising you and what your body was up to.

Posted by kim at allconsuming | September 9, 2007 06:44 AM

(((((HUGS)))))) sandi

I really enjoyed reading about your peaceful day! GOOD for you for creating it! (((((HUGS))))) sandi

Posted by (((((HUGS)))))) sandi | September 9, 2007 01:41 PM

Sharon

To me, this seems like part of the bipolar/mania stuff. I've experienced it first hand with my Dad. Look at your entries & maybe you'll see the pattern - up, up, up, then DOWN then thinking you're in a middle place again, but to the outside, really just heading back up. The constant working, the feeling 'ok' only when totally occupied most of the time... I'm prob. not going to be popular for this, but just saying. To me, who lived with it in my Dad my WHOLE LIFE, your patterns are way too familiar.

Posted by Sharon | September 9, 2007 05:35 PM

cindy

I've been reading you (or i should say, your blog) for a few months now, never posted & felt the need to tell you that I'm always amazed at the huge love you feel for your kids & that you never (not that i've read) have an unkind thing to say about them. Rare, to say the least. I wish I could be your kind of mom-ness to my 3 girls. I so love them, too, but if I had a post, I don't know if I could be as sweet. It's refreshing.

Posted by cindy | September 10, 2007 08:59 AM