The final guest post, by my husband, in poetry
sept 17th, 2007
you told me the day
i began losing you
was when our youngest son was born
sept 17th, 2003, today
i don't remember it, you said
i read the paper, went to work later that day &
your heart started the s l o w
unconscious process of
leaving
i understand how it happens
the little hard things we do to each other
(i'm thoughtful, in that way)
i can see it now, in reverse
the sequence of events that lead to
the inevitable
wreckage
the tragic, untimely
death
of us
& all so unnecessary, so much harder
than the birth
as if since we've run a degree out of parallel, ever so slightly
off course, uncharted, away;hearts
split, so
gradually, you don't notice, until the two
are this
apart,
that it seems improbable to find the way
back again
~shane
Posted by Jess at 10:22 PM Permalink
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It's very hard to comment on this. It's a beautiful description of the gradual parting of ways, Shane. I hope that you are both able to give yourselves the needed time to make decisions without malice or harm, and to forgive each other if you need to move on to a new "configuration" of family life. It's not the end of the world, and you are both excellent parents. You deserve some happiness whether it be together or apart. And although you share it with the world, it's really nobody's decision but your own.
Posted by marian | September 25, 2007 04:33 AM