This questioning, this self-doubt. It has to stop. I fell asleep in the school tonight. After a meeting. I was just so tired. The unreasonable part of me thought "i'll just have a little rest on this couch, and then i will write! I will write the great american novel. I will write the best damn book proposal anyone has ever seen. I will be great. But, i am so tired. I will close my eyes just for a moment. A wee moment as my grandpa used to say."
And then. Shit! It's 12:30 and i just slept for two hours on the couch in an elementary school. No writing was done. I drove home in a panic. Expecting my poor worried husband to be sitting up for me. But, i guess i have worn him out too.
I am on this winding road, similar to the one we drive to campsites, wondering, wandering. Lost in my mental state.
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If you do figure out how to stop the self doubt, and the questioning, let me know ok? I'm out of ideas.
Posted by Jessica | August 22, 2007 06:31 AM