if you find yourself falling apart

I am finding myself in such a strange place. I suppose it's all this introspection. All the therapy.

I just don't want to talk to anybody. I crave solitude. I just want to be alone. To deal with my demons without the harsh eye of loved ones. I don't want to be loved. The crushing responsibility of it.

Being cared about means you have to step up. You can't destroy yourself.

The kids and i have been having wonderful days. More time in the water than out. Summer days make me happy.

If i could just live through the nights. If i could find a way to talk about my murky thoughts. I wish i was easier to live with. I wish life could be so simple as building sandcastles faster than the breaking tide.

Posted by Jess at 09:57 PM Permalink

Comments (4)

Debbie

I absolutely love the photographs you choose to display here, Jess! Keep at the therapy and keep loving yourself.

Posted by Debbie | July 6, 2007 07:38 AM

Mocha

That photograph IS some serious therapy. I know how much summer sun is good for you - how can you get that year-round, eh?

Miss you. Love you. Hug you in Chicago sometime this month? Hmmm?

Posted by Mocha | July 7, 2007 04:57 PM

Kari

I have been thinking a lot about you. And your beautiful way of expressing yourself shows you are on the right path. Words, photos, honesty and vulnerability are all leading you to a release of that pressure and an understanding of how phenomenal you are.

Enjoy the alone for now... and then recognize that you're going to be the recipient of many fond embraces in Chicago, no strings attached, no responsibility on your shoulders, please.

Posted by Kari | July 7, 2007 06:18 PM

Emma

Thanks for those words.

Posted by Emma | July 29, 2007 02:47 PM