I will tell you this about my softball weekend. It was fun. Super fun. I won a trophy - "Most Inspirational Female." I haven't won anything since i was a kid. It felt nice.
I am tired of everyone worrying about me. Seeing them talk in hushed words to my husband. Being judged for my actions, having my actions judged.
Suddenly playing lots of softball makes me manic or lacking moderation.
I have always been an over-achiever. I like to do the things i like. I like to do them a lot.
I need help writing.
What do you want to know? Go ahead throw me your worst. I'll answer as many questions as i can. Send em in via comments.
Posted by Jess at 08:12 PM Permalink
Subscribe RSS
What the hell, I'll give you my very judgmental best, because I know you're waiting for someone to do it, and I'd rather it was me, because I want to see you get better/feel better, and of all the things I worry about in your life, this is the one that I think is most important. It affects your daily life, it affects your medication, and it damages your organs when combined with the meds that you need.
Are you still drinking a lot? I don't mean are you an alcoholic, because I have no idea if you are one or not, and that has nothing to do with my question. There is someone close to me (not my partner) who was drinking a lot, and it was causing her a lot of pain. The reason for that was that alcohol mixed with her anti-depressants is very very hard on her liver. She ended up having to go to the hospital because they thought she was poisoned. My guess is that the only "poison" was the booze combined with various pills. So, my concern isn't whether or not you're an alcoholic, because that's between you and...well, you. I'm concerned because I know you need meds for your mental health right now, and I think the alcohol makes it very hard on your body. That's it, that's my worst. :)
Have fun at BlogHer! I wish I was going. Maybe next time, or maybe you can convince everyone there to come to the Blog World Expo in Vegas in November. Cheap flights, cheap rooms, free booze, and tasty buffets.
By the way, what could be better than a whole weekend playing softball? Until I was 25, it was my way of life - every major holiday was spent at a tournament. I miss it terribly. I miss the intimate softball friendships (I don't think the girlie understands because she was never into sports), the exercise, the fresh air, the pure joy of hitting the sweet spot on the bat, and the fabulous feeling of scooping up a short-hopped bad throw to get an out.
Posted by Flippy | July 24, 2007 01:02 AM