(Note: This was typed from Jess' handwritten notes. She still doesn't have her computer and wanted to make sure you knew I was responsible for the typo's and poor punctuation. -- Shane)
I don't have a computer so the thought of writing a blog post out on a piece of paper to be transferred later seems rather daunting and kind of ass-backwards.
I am in the mental/psychiatric ward on a 48 hour hold, which they have already extended by another 48 hours, so I will be here until at least monday.
I saw my G.P. this morning and she actually let me have some clothes, no shoes. I really feel as if I have made a terrible mistake being here. I miss my children immensely and am worried about the toll this will take on them.
I have to earn privileges but I am not really sure how in a place where everybody scares me. People are divided into two groups; the elderly in dementia and younger people who sleep in video monitored rooms and are schizophrenic. Funnily enough I feel like an outcast in high school. I can tell there are chairs that people sit in, chairs that are "theirs". I am scared of upsetting someone and getting the crap beat out of me.
I have used up all my resources at home, as far as taking care of my kids. Soon there will be on one left there to watch them, as grandma dawn has to leave soon. Shane has to work. I want to go home and I am unsure how to make that happen. I want to see my children.
Posted by Jess at 04:56 PM Permalink
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i wish i was close and could help you. hope you are home soon.
xoxoxoxoxo
Posted by jenijen | March 31, 2007 05:41 PM