feeling a little stressed, a little pained

So, first off i should let you know that my very lovely husband did the graphic design of the site, including the little fishy banner that is based on my business cards from BlogHer last year. All the complicated Movable Type stuff, including the drop downs and 700 emails from me were done by a lovely and patient and canadian! fellow named bruce. We started on sunday morning and were all done by last night.

I can't tell you how happy and excited it makes me to have this new site. So pretty and pink. Pretty in pink.

Spring is coming in like a lion. Is that right? Whatever. There are daffodils and crocuses everywhere. The sun is shining. It's all rosebuds and chubby baby bums.

I am feeling much better. The heavy burden of depression is lifting from my shoulders. I feel like the winter has aged me. Made me grow a little more weary. Made my steps not quite so light. I am on half my original dose of effexor now. I can feel my hair growing again, literally. Tiny electrical impulses through every follicle. All the time. My head feels a little lighter though, like a sponge that has had a little of the water wrung out of it. I am thinking, so far, that i made the right choice. My anxiety is a little peaky. I can tell that the lower dosage is not helping with that so much. The clonazepam is helping me deal with that.

I am hoping to be drug free in another month. Then re-evaluate. See what i want. I don't like the thought of my liver being destroyed by chemicals. That the chemicals are doing things the doctors are not really sure about. Rescue Remedy sounds better all the time.

My back hurts like crap. Nothing i can do about that. It better heal soon because softball season is starting.

xx
jess