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February 27, 2007

many thanks

This morning as i was walking out to my car i noticed something.

Something so fantastic.

Crocus flowers. Purple and yellow alongside the hundreds of snowdrops that have blossomed. Spring is coming.

For me the year really has two seasons; happy and sad.

Those flowers? They mean that sad is almost over.

And yes i am weaning myself off effexor. And yes i feel good about it. And no i have not talked to my doctor or a psychiatrist. But if you know anything about me by now, you know that i stick my tongue out to that.

Today i spent four hours doing cartwheels, bouncing on trampolines and doing triple holds on zip lines. It was exhilarating. It was fun. My children and i squealed with joy until the sun went down.

Exhausted after five straight hours of play i tucked them into bed. They fell asleep within minutes. I hovered for a few moments. Kissing every face. Feeling fresh and alive. Feeling the glow, the energy of youth wash over me. The joy of my children.

The perfect day.

Hello spring.

May you bring up fresh hope for me.

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EDITED TO ADD

I need you. Please say hello.

And oh my god cats stink the stinkiest farts ever.

EVER!!!

And thank-you to my friends who tolerate my drunken gate knocks.

I Lub you

Posted by Jess at 09:15 PM Permalink

Comments (17)

kilowatthour

good morning, sunshine!

Posted by kilowatthour | February 28, 2007 03:38 AM

lelly

i am so glad that happy is in the air. look at those crocuses (croci?) every. single. morning.

salty hugs from the carolina shore...

Posted by lelly | February 28, 2007 06:54 AM

Andrea

Hello. Bring on the happy. I want to wear sandals and shorts again.

This winter has seemed to be the longest one ever. It's about time the flowers come up, huh?

Posted by Andrea | February 28, 2007 07:42 AM

Renee

That energy-filled day sounds perfect to me. That's something I wish I did more often.
And the falling asleep right away is an added bonus!

Posted by Renee | February 28, 2007 08:14 AM

jenB

i am jealous with the fire of a thousand suns that you have crocuses. We will be waiting for the snow to melt until June, I swear. Spring flowers are a sign of hope indeed. Embrace it baby.

xoxoxoxo

Posted by jenB | February 28, 2007 08:33 AM

cheri

Hello:
I saw purple, yellow and white crocus today as well in the park. It was amazing! I am a military wife stationed in Germany. I have been going nuts with the nonstop rain and gray. It was so invigorating to walk in the sun and smell the fresh air today.

Posted by cheri | February 28, 2007 08:56 AM

Chair

Try to remember that Marmalade can smell a lot more than you can.

:^*

I would love a drunken gate knocking from you.

Posted by Chair | February 28, 2007 10:19 AM

Traci

awesome post. good for you, and i'm so glad the sad is on it's way out!

Posted by Traci | February 28, 2007 10:40 AM

The one thing I miss about being in Florida is the bulbs. They were always such a great promise of better things right around the corner.

Posted by TB | February 28, 2007 01:21 PM

Beth

Hello Jess! It has been a while since I have commented. I must admit this winter has been a hard one for me too, but the sun and the flowers definately help bring smiles to the face and light to the heart.

Posted by Beth | February 28, 2007 06:32 PM

Woman with Kids

Where did you go play? I wanna go! Oh, and I suppose I could bring the boys too.

Posted by Woman with Kids | March 1, 2007 05:17 AM

Angela

There is something that there are no words for about spring flowers. I am eagerly awaiting them myself. Enjoy, hope is a good thing.

Posted by Angela | March 1, 2007 07:41 AM

ade

Hi Jess! Do you have lots of snow? Yay crocus-in-the-snow photos!

Also (once snow is gone) do you have access to a bike? That tends to bring on the happy for me--riding fast downhill. Whee!

Posted by ade | March 1, 2007 09:17 AM

Xangelle

Hope your day is bright and cheery. Isn't it nice that spring is almost here?

I soooooo miss the warmth and brightness.

Posted by Xangelle | March 1, 2007 01:11 PM

summer

I'm glad to read this. I hope the weaning off effexor goes well. That stuff never did much for me.

Posted by summer | March 1, 2007 01:55 PM

jenijen

hello beautiful

happy spring

xoxoxo

Posted by jenijen | March 2, 2007 09:35 AM

kerflop

Spring takes forever to arrive here, even longer than Canada. But, the days are finally getting longer and it's more sunny and less gloomy, and I'm just so excited about it.

Here's to happiness.

Posted by kerflop | March 5, 2007 06:57 AM