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December 11, 2006

lost cause

My power has just come on after a 10 hour outage. A giant windstorm swept through my little village. Trees fell everywhere, including in my yard.

We came home for a few moments, then evacuated in fear of giant fir trees falling on the house.

I have so many christmas cards i am planning on rolling naked in them.

I am okay. I called the doctor. Shane made an intervention. I am seeking therapy.

I am scared. To come out from behind this curtain. I am weak.

I am doing this for him. For you.

I am going to be better.

I am ready, so ready, to be happy.

Thank you everybody.

Posted by Jess at 10:46 PM Permalink

Comments (13)

Good. I'm so ready to hear about it. So happy for you to be happy.

Posted by Chair | December 12, 2006 12:11 AM

you can do it. you are one brave motherfucker.

Posted by jenB | December 12, 2006 01:04 AM

You'll make sure that Shane gets some video of you rolling in the cards, right?

Be well.

Posted by blackbird | December 12, 2006 04:09 AM

I really don't want my comment to sound like a cheezy love song, but Jess,

you can do it,
I believe in you,
we're all here to support you. XOXO.

Posted by Irene | December 12, 2006 04:50 AM

TB

Don't forget to do it for you because you deserve all the happiness in the world. You CAN do this.

Posted by TB | December 12, 2006 06:06 AM

Like everyone else...I await your happiness, too.

Posted by wordgirl | December 12, 2006 06:36 AM

We love you, Jess, even if we're not local.

Be happy.

Posted by daysgoby | December 12, 2006 09:37 AM

ade

You are a wonderful...

poet
blogger
mother
volunteer
record label creator/owner
editor
wife
friend
party-thrower
promoter
dancer
survivor

with the greatest smile in the world...

and those are just the things I know about!!!

You're an inspiration, and I'm a believer. Happy holidays Jess, I love you.

Ade

Posted by ade | December 12, 2006 11:14 AM

Oh honey, you are not a lost cause. You are a beautiful person who deserves happiness. I'm sorry about the storm, hope you didn't lose too many trees. And, I'm sorry I haven't mailed my card yet, I keep thinking we're going to take a family photo to include in them but we haven't done it yet. But we will, and I'll send you a card, I promise!

Posted by Elizabeth | December 12, 2006 11:27 AM

It is going to help and you are going to feel good again.
All is well, thank you thank you thank you for sharing.

Posted by Deb | December 12, 2006 03:06 PM

Wishing you safety and love. Love ya!

Posted by Lia | December 12, 2006 05:30 PM

i've got to get my card up there to get in on that action.

(hugs)

Posted by kilowatthour | December 12, 2006 08:50 PM

jfoo

As my best friend says in instances like this, "keep truckin." Somehow that just makes me put my head down and perservere.

Your brood is just so great. So much personality. They are so lucky to have a mum who appreciates their individuality and is so involved in making their lives so full.

Keep Truckin Gurl

Posted by jfoo | December 13, 2006 02:08 PM

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