is my life that different from yours

It is OK...I am so sorry you are still sad. If only we could talk ourselves out of the bad feelings.

I think it may be exactly what you need, to write right now. Here's hoping.

I just want to send you energy to deal with yourself kindly through this. Know you will see light again, remember to breathe, second by second if you can. The only way out is through and all that shit. YOU KNOW....
love and light

Oh Jess, I'm so sorry you're sad today. I hope you feel better soon.

I hope you feel better soon.

Today was a hard day here, too.

I hope writing helps you. I'm hoping it will help me.

Sorry to hear you feel bad today. But you admitted it you didn't just stay in bed with the covers over your head.

The whys are hardest things about depression, it doesn't make sense why you feel the way you do when the circumstances of your life don't indicate a "reason" to be depressed.

I don't think you are back at the bottom, you want to be out. The bottom is where you don't want out, it is all too much. This is the way of medication, have you talked to the doctor, dosage changes can help.

I hate that I nodded along to everything you said. I feel that way too.

There's only one good thing about the sad times -- and that's how you feel when they inevitably end. I try to remind myself that if I didn't know what "bad" feels like, I would have no way of understanding when things are "good."

I think NaNoWriMo will be something to help pull you out. (I'm doing it this year, too -- and hope I finish) Good luck!

Thank you for writing honestly about your thoughts and feelings. I am right there with you crawling around the inside of my head trying to figure out wy I feel so sad.I feel a sense of relief each time I read that I am not alone in my stuggles. You are brave. I hope your upswing comes soon. In the meantime, keep paddling as best you can.

I hope so too. Cause I think of you often.

I'm going out tonight, with my husband. With a bottle of Yellow Tail Shiraz for the host. We will share it. And I will think of you with almost every sip and wish you were there!

Oh Jess, I really want to give you a huge hug. I miss you so much and want you to be happy. And yet, I know that wanting doesn't make it so.

Best wishes. You are supported and loved.

PS. I am doing NaNoWriMo and NaBloPoMo, too.

It's gonna sound a bit crazy, but I have had so much health success from the goji juice I drink, that I signed up as a distributor. My best friend's husband went through what you are now, and since starting drinking the juice a few months ago, is back to his old self. You could google goji juice or read gojistories.com, if you are interested. The Himalyan Goji is 100% money back so you wouldn't be throwing money away if it didn't work. I was very skeptical myself when my parents told me about it, but am feeling so good now.

Here's hoping for a quick return to the sunny days. People react differently to each road they take. You're handling your roads to the best of your ability and you'll get through this.

I am NaNoWriMo-ing too! I think it will be good for us. Code name tulip, FYI.

Thinking of you today.

Wow. I know how you feel.Oddly enough I have four kids and am ex-city living in the middle of nowhere...with weird Halloween costumes on deck for next week.

I feel this way too sometimes, and after wondering what the hell is wrong with me for a while. i try to just accept that I get sad about things and not see it as a big blight on who I am. Sigh. Its hard, huh?