Do you get this email, like 75 times a day? I do.
I'm watching "Fast Times at Ridgemont High" as we speak. I remember it being a little too old for me, which made it way, way more tantalizing.
But now? Now, i have an 18 year old babysitter, and her boyfriend and her? I know that they are, you know, doing it. Although that is perfectly okay. She's 18. She's graduated from highschool, she's responsible and, in general, a really great girl. I trust her with my kids. That's saying something. But still.
What freaks me out? I have a nine year old daughter and the days go slow, but the years fly by. I'm not ready. I'm not ready. Tristan will have her first sex ed class next year. Next year!
How? How do you deal with that?
Tristan asked me today why all her friends parents are "40-something and you and dad are so young?" Although i was flattered i had to remind her that when parker is 9 i will be in my 40's (gulp) and while "daddy and i had our kids young" it was not necessarily the best thing to do because i gave up a career to be at home and have babies. And! "having babies and being a mom is a good thing, but also doing what you want is important too."
It's all so complicated. I want them to respect what i am doing. Believe that it is important. But, at the same time, i want something more for them. I also want them to experience the love that i have. The sheer joy of motherhood.
How do you teach all that?
Posted by Jess at 11:32 PM Permalink
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Heh at watching Fast Times. I'm appreciating that movie more now than when it first came out. ;-)
It's really hard, this growing up thing our kids do. I don't have any answers and I have 2 grown up kids and 1 that is very close. It's still hard, every single day, for me to watch them.
Posted by Denise | July 9, 2006 05:46 AM