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June 22, 2006

all about my boobs

As you know i weaned parker a few months ago. It was hard blah, blah, blah.

The hardest part? The changes in my body.

We all also know that shane was pretty eager to have me milk-free. As it turns out i am not so eager.

First of all i have gone from a generous 38D to a wimpy 36B. Pretty much overnight. Also? I gained five pounds. I've pretty much lost it again, but it hasn't really helped my confidence when naked. I noticed the other night that when i lie down my boobs (whats left of them) disappear into my chest.

It just isn't fair. After all my pain, suffering and sacrifice birthing and nursing four kids i am left with a flabby tummy, silver stretch marks across my belly, three distinct cesarian scars, half-filled water balloon boobs and skin tags.

This should be my time to celebrate my body and all it has done. The re-birth of my sexuality.

Instead i have a body that is a road map of the devastation of kids. It's a good thing i love them. It's a good thing that when the lights are out i still feel the same and my husband doesn't really give a damn about all of that.


Posted by Jess at 04:24 PM Permalink

Comments (12)

I can totally relate. After stoping with my second, I used to joke that I had Gilda Radner/ Lisa Loopner boobs and was flatter than I was at 16. The good news is that the tissue did bounce back ... it took two years, but did come back and I gained a both a size and cup back - without any other weight gain :)

Ada

I gained weight right after Franklin stopped breast-feeding as well. I took a bit more time to lose it than you though.

However, the comment above by Helene makes me hopeful about the boob thing as I intend to do this whole breast-feeding again at some point. Hooray, they come back!

Yet... I saw my mother in a bikini before her five children. They did not bounce back.

Perhaps it's in the genes. In that case, I'm destined to develop cow utters. Love it.

Hey, Jess, one thing I think you'll notice now, especially since you are fairly active, is that your body will continue to tone up and tighten up over the next 10 years or so.

It just takes a while (a few years after you finish breastfeeding) for it to get over the devastation. You'll see! It won't go back to the way it was, but it'll be much better than it is now.

belmomma

Hey there!
I love the title of your blog! I also love your topic. I also have 4 kids and have experienced the downward slide of my boobs. It's hard to even remember the perkier days, it was so long ago!
Your bio says you live on Vancouver Island? My in laws live in Sidney.

Oh how wonderful that there is light at the end of this seemingly endless tunnel of sudden weight gain mixed with, as Ada put it, cow utters. It's been 3mths since I weaned Erika and I still have the size but no filler if you know what I mean! Ack! I want my perk back!

I hear ya on this one, although I am one of the unlucky, never got them back looking normal. Shriveled up balloons is more like it. The only time the girls has any heft to them is when I gain a bit of weight - not sure which is worse. The no boobs or the extra fat. I, too, am blessed to have a hubbie that is just thrilled with having me. Candle Light makes anything look nice.

Kim

Every so often I lament the loss of my tight, toned body but if I had to trade my life now for the life I had then to get it back, there's no contest. I consider these my battle scars and I earned every one of them.

I hear ya, honey. I've always been a smallish B, but at least before I had kids, they were a PERKY smallish B. Three kids later, they're down to a generous A (maybe a smallish B with PMS), and have slid down a good inch. When I lie down, I might as well look like a boy. Lucky for me, Hubby doesn't complain...he just wants access!

Jen

So, I weaned Willow about two weeks ago, and things are certainly looking, well, prunish, horribly enough. Matches my deflated balloon belly, I suppose.

Did you get crushingly horribly depressed when you weaned Parker? I could hardly move the past two weeks. Think perhaps it was the drop off of the prolactin.

mine did not bounce back! arrgh! but having a huge tire around my waist I think my attention is more drawn to it than to my breast!

it will take some time for all of us before we accept our new bodies, but we'll get there, I'm sure. meanwhile Jess, know that your love for your kids shines like a beacon and makes you really, really, amazingly beautiful.

Hey I found your blog because I found you on Flickr and I don't remember how I found you on Flickr except I think I was aimlessly browsing around as I always do.

Anyway, I wanted to stop by and say I love your username. It's what I think my life will be soon - I'm a soon-to-be daddy of twins with, of course, no clue what to expect.

If it's bad sometime I will go back to read your blog about four kids and realize I have no right to complain with only two!

Oh, you take great pictures by the way - had a quick browse through and I like how natural the kids look, you don't clean them up 'til they're bright and shiny before you snap away, that's what makes them look so real, and good.

erik

karen

oh how I can relate to the deflated boobs! I went from a generous 36C to - I have no idea - but no where near that. I nursed both my boys but the last one ended over a year ago and still...WINDSOCKS!

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