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June 18, 2006

a month of birthdays - part three

whistle blower

Somehow, i have made it through. My kids are now 2,5,7 and 9.

2,4,6 and 8 was much more fun to say.

I kind of feel like we faked our way through toby's party as i am completely exhausted and keeping up the exuberance for a whole month of birthdays is exhausting.

But because toby is toby his party was the funnest of all. We had a boot camp party for him. All the kids dressed up in camo and we ran them through an obstacle course, some laps of the house and a couple games of capture the flag. Shane and i got to wear whistles and yell at them.

What could be better?

again with the sparklers

Toby occupies a large space in my heart and my worries. He's such an amazing little guy. Friends to everyone. He wanted to invite every boy in the school to his party and i'm sure they all would have gladly come. I had to limit him to the boys from three classes. His teacher often tells me she adores him and that she goes home every evening and her husband asks her what her "toby story of the day" is.

He has this disability which in the grand scheme of things is very minor. He is healthy, he is happy. It's just that speech is such a fundamental thing. It's how we communicate. I almost wish he couldn't talk at all because then we could say "he doesn't talk" when people question us. Instead people look at him like he's something "less." Kids tease him. He is often frustrated by people not understanding, or worse, pretending that they do by nodding their head "yes."

I just worry. I want the world to know him like i do. I want the world to experience all the little things that make toby, toby. I just love him.


Posted by Jess at 05:51 PM Permalink

Comments (13)

you're such an amazing mom, and what a great kid you have.

you are making a better world for him every day, and people will know how special and wonderful toby really is. you are making such a difference in our lives just writing these lines, never forget that.

he sounds divine...
and looks like a wonderful day.

so many of us have a child with a disability...I know those pangs of worry and fear, but it sounds like he is an extraordinary boy with a lovely family-
these things are worth so much.

I get what you're saying. So deeply. I want the world to be easy for Alex. That it will be hard makes me cry.

Looks like an awesome birthday! I should get you to come work for me; planning kids parties.

Jess, it sounds like the world loves him too, for the most part. And that will probably continue all his life. All your children are so beautiful!

I get what you're saying, and I understand. It wouldn't matter if Toby couldn't speak. People are ignorant no matter what. Toby would still get looks of "less" because that's how people are. (And I am speaking from experience here.)

But it sounds like Toby has the best mom in the world for him and you are his greatest resource and cheerleader.

Good for both of you!

awe, how adorable....Toby sounds wonderful...

btw, I bet my husband would be jealous of a boot camp party...lol...he's all about the Army....lol....I may have to do that for him and the kids just to do it one day
lol

I can feel the love you have for him through your words.

I luuuuuv the photo. Beautiful. Frame it

Pesto is cute and gorgeous, too!
I sure love big dogs, ...and little ones...and mine...and everybody else's,LOL

My Shawn was like Toby in that he loved everyone and people all loved him back....messy, dear little boys are like he was...Give him an extra big hug for me, ok?
Puppy pics are up, btw
love, Grammacello

That was a wonderful post. I'm sure Toby is very happy to have a caring mom like you.

I found you VIA blogging baby. Your post touched me! my son is four , he was severly toungtied at birth and hte doctors could not surgically correct it until he was almost two, he can communicate, but only those of us with him all day everyday can understand what he is saying, and sometimes not even then. There is hope for him as he is going to give speech therepy a try, But i get SO SO SO mad when people , like my next door neighbour) tells his kids my son is "stupid" and a ":retard" because he cannot talk like they can, My boys is supremely special, and very very bright.. it does hurt so bad, and I too somedays wish he couldnt talk at all, just to spare him the mean things people say about it. He cant talk well, but his hearing is great...

sorry for the liong post, but you touched a nerve, and I really relate to this post! thanks for writing it!


also awesome awssome party idea!

Kim

You're a good Momma.

People can be so insensitive and they don't realize that they are being one. Or they do and really don't care, which is too sad.

You're doing a great job providing your son the love and care that he rightly deserves and his thanks to you is the many many hugs and kisses. The joy of motherhood. AHHH!!

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