dr dad

Do you remember that episode of the sopranos where tony tells his therapist "sometimes what we do in here is like taking a shit"?

I've been thinking about that episode recently. Wishing that i could have that kind of purge. That feeling of letting it all go.

I guess that sometimes wishes do come true for i have experienced the full body purge. Luckily i was the only one in the house who got sick. But oh how sick i got, made worse by the fact that i started the getting sick with the first round of stomach yucks on friday night only to have it return on tuesday night. In the middle of tuesday night while pleading with shane to "call an ambulance because i'm dying!" i was simultaneously amazed and horrified with the amount of crap, literally and figuratively, one body can hold inside of it. Yet here i am, slightly achy and nauseous, but all better! And! If even momentarily, i lost the five pounds i gained after weaning parker. It won't last though because i am not one of those people that doesn't eat when they are sick. In between bathroom visits i was thinking about the food i was going to eat when i was all better. I love food.

Shane stayed home from work (until 2:30) wednesday as i had been keeping him up all night with my barfing and explosiveness. I was struck throughout the morning by the differences in our parenting. Now, to say he was staying home is a bit misleading. He was actually working at home and letting parker and eliza fend for themselves. As i laid in bed doubled over with stomach cramps i listened to parker and eliza playing outside in the sandbox while shane talked (on and on) on the telephone oblivious to their safety. I would have been angry had i had the strength instead i filed away a mental note making sure not to leave him alone with the kids on a workday.

When i finally came downstairs this morning the house was such an unbelievable disaster. Shane was all googly eyes, "you're feeling better? you sure are pretty."

"Yes, i'm feeling better, but you are definitely not getting lucky anytime soon."

"What? I take care of you and the kids? And now you hate me?"

"Yes i hate you, but thanks for taking care of me."