creepy show

Creepy show, kinda like the bloody show. Bloody show, now there's a phrase i could've lived without ever knowing what it meant. All the doctors and moms who ask you when you are nearing the end of pregnancy "any show?" "any bloody show?" Curses i'm glad to be done with that.

I know that many times i have spoken of wanting more babies. I really thought i did. But, last week when i was at the doctor complaining of fatigue and headaches, general malaise. She said right off; "are you pregnant?"

I just about shit my pants right there.

"But, but i had my tubes tied."

"Well, (gleefull) it happens. Let's do a test."

So, off i marched to pee in a cup with Parker and Eliza watching. "what are you doing mommy?" "are you having a baby mommy?"

and then of course Parker; "I'm not a baby!"

"NO, i am NOT having a BABY."

And so we sat, and waited. It took forever for that lady doc to come back and in the meantime i saw the nurse go into her office, my pee in hand, and have a little chat.

I was freaking out. Really. Freaking. Out. But, you know, keeping it cool for the kids. Playing peek-a-boo and shit. I knew it was possible because shane and i? We are baby-makin super-heroes. We're four for four. Only had sex four times right dad!

So, it took a while. And during those four or five minutes i realized after a jillion thought circles that hey! I am cool with four kids. Four is where it's at. I have totally reconciled that desire for more because while i love babies and all that goes into making babies and making them grow into little people, i'm tired. I am really tired.

Just a sec....

I have said i was tired in 57 posts out of 167.

So, eventually dr lady came back and let me know i am not pregnant, just festering in pneumonia which has cleared up nicely that-you very much.