if you write it they will come

Wow. An interesting day. I remember reading once about anonymous versus public blogs. If you don't want people from your past to find you, don't do it. Well, i thought that didn't apply to me and i was wondering if anybody even cared about me. Today, i found out as my one and only ex-boyfriend found me.

It was kind of nice to know that someone actually gave a rat's ass what had happened to me. I just don't want my family here because that would be weird.

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Tonight we went to a halloween party. It was nice and fun and total hell for me. I suppose for one because Parker was totally freaked out by the costumes and scary decorations and as such he wouldn't leave my lap. More specifically my ass seated on a chair in front of a big bowl of Doritos. On the way home i decided that i am totally suffering from social anxiety. Have been my whole life. I completely clam up and to be honest i jumped at the chance to go home. I'm okay with a few people at our house and i'm totally okay with board meetings. Anything else and i very nearly poop my pants or at the very least come home and spend a while on the pot.

Gross. Way too much information. I'll try again tomorrow.