must be a dumptruck

My mood is so crazy lately. Up, down, UP, DOWN, down, up. Now, before you say anything yes, i have tried medications. Hate them! With a passion.

Right now i am like matte paint, dull and lacklustre and easily stained. The energy i had last week to be the super-parent has been drained. Now, i dread another puppet show or day of finger-painting. Part of the problem is sex - or lack there of. More appropriately intimacy. We have been so wrapped up in the business of our lives and the whirlwind of kids and playdates and pottery, choir, swimming, ballet, piano, skating, music class - phew! that we have lost sight of each other; shane and i. We are, literally, strangers in the night. Not helping matters is the season of the cold and flu - me then him then me (with a cold sore too - woohoo).

I think i forget how much i need that intimacy, long nights of chatter and catching up. Getting in synch with each other. Calming the up downs. Calming ME down.

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