So, today is Parker's 2nd birthday. My gosh i am in love with my little son. Parker is perfect to me, except maybe the fact that he has never slept more than a few hours at a time - in between the booby.
I feel really sad that he is 2 now - because a two year old is really not a baby anymore, and that means i won't have anymore babies. Now, i know i should feel blessed by all i have - and i do. This has nothing to do with my fertility, my huge family: all of those things i truly appreciate.
I just can't get over the fact that i'm not having anymore. Since the moment i felt them digging around in there and heard them snipping at the end of my last cesarean i have been praying that those tubes of mine would magically come back together and i would get pregnant. I even still try to have sex when i know i'm ovulating. Now though, today, i realize that i'm never going to get pregnant again.
Most people think i'm crazy for having four kids or wonder how i do it. I'm telling you though four kids is no different than two - just a little bit more. But that means more of the good stuff too. More love, more laughs, more chaos, more happiness.
Adding another baby just adds more.
Anyway, happy birthday to my gorgeous beautiful little baby.
xxoo
Posted by Jess at 09:12 AM Permalink
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