i'm sorry

I'm sorry for being such an incredibly, insensitive loser. I'm sorry that people are sad and i am unable to help them in any way but make smarmy smart-ass comments.

I'm in a bad mood today. I think the constant up and down's of this so-called vacation are wearing me out. Shane decided that, today - day three- of his big vacation would be a good day to go back to work for a short while. Asshole. I'll regret saying that later, but it feels good right now. Tomorrow we are off to Vancouver for four days which will be nice. The logistics, however, of getting four kids, two adults, two dogs ready for four days away without any help has left me feeling unloved, unappreciated and under-whelmed with my family. Not to mention the 9 chickens (two got eaten by owls which is a whole 'nother story) and 11 chicks and one baby turkey who need to be prepare so that the 9 year old down the street can watch them.

So, i'm sorry for being emotionally unavailable to anybody or anything as wallow in self-pity.