period

Now, don't take this the wrong way, but i just got my period and it is really depressing. Why?

I have four children, lovely, healthy, beautiful children. Three of whom were born by c-section. The last in september 2003. At that time i had my tubes tied. Four kids is/was enough. My body couldn't handle anymore surgeries. Yet, every single day since then i have regretted the decision. I ache for another chance to pro-create, to feel my belly grow and twitch and wriggle. To experience the pure bliss of the baby moon. I lie in bed at night hoping and wishing for those tubes to come back together, to let one teeny, tiny egg through.

And this month, for awhile, i thought it had actually happened.
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